A sense of self

I haven’t been the happiest person of late. A lot of this can be blamed on the simple truth of lack of sleep, or possibly the continued interruption of my body’s natural circadian rhythms (getting up an hour earlier for my not-new-anymore job continues to throw off my balance). But being unhappy also throws me into a state of self-analysis: if I’m not happy, then, what does make me happy? What helps me feel satisfied with life?

It’s fun to think about these things, but what’s even better is to act on them. This weekend (which I made a three-day weekend because I could, and because I was kind of sick on Saturday anyway) I am making an effort to experience all of these good things, listed here in no particular order.



While making this list, I realize that making lists should be on the list. It is tremendously satisfying. Making a list generates order out of chaos. It relaxes my mind and makes the insurmountable suddenly doable.



Being outdoors. The absolute best day of my recent vacation with my husband was spent on a bicycle ride. 
I also really enjoy hiking (most folks know this) but I haven’t done any hiking this year at all. Part of this is weather, allergies, and poor planning. Part of it is honestly not wanting to drive to a mountain when I already spend so many hours in the car each week. But I don’t have to go that far. Today I will drive 20 minutes to a small hill outside of town, and get a hike in.



Cooking good things definitely belongs on the list. For me, that means using local foods when I can, chopping and dicing and transforming them into healthy meals. Recipes usually come from EatingWell or Cooking Light. (Minor segue: Cooking Light, I think, saved my life. I am so grateful to have discovered it when I was 24, still naturally thin, and genuinely interested in how to eat healthfully. Now that I am 41 and gain weight at the drop of a hat, I am putting the lessons I learned to good use).

Today I will make this week’s yogurt. I will also make a tried-and-true Chopped Greek Salad with Chicken for dinner, and prep what I need for Crispy Vegetable Quesadillas so I can make those tomorrow night.





Knitting and watching old movies are also on the list. Fortunately, these things can sometimes be done simultaneously. Today, I will begin working on the right-hand Junie Marie Mitts. These are a gift as part of a birthday swap, so I won't show a photo of mine yet. I am so freaking happy with myself -- I knit the first mitten in two days. Two days! The first pair I ever made took more like six months - I had no idea what I was doing. So this is pretty awesome. I kind of got in a knitting rut this summer, but these mitts are getting me out of it. This is a good thing.

For a movie... I do not know. Romances of the 1930s or 1940s? Or sci-fi of the 1950s? The Day the Earth Stood Still is still on Netflix. Or, perhaps a re-watch of Double Indemnity? That's a great one. I'll have to see what is available. I enjoy them all.

I also need to do my laundry. Not because I enjoy doing laundry, but because it's on a mental must-do list. And the best part of making a list is crossing things off the list.